I am back. Kind of. Physically I am here. Mentally and emotionally I still sometimes kind of check out for a little bit. If you have been around very long, then you know that I can't always write here because of lack of computer access. And if you have been around for the past couple of weeks, then you know what has been happening in my neck of the woods and why I haven't been around.
Today, I finally feel like writing something.
Things are starting to normal up a little. Although, it is still not like it should be around here. I still wear my "in memory" ribbon. And the reason I do that is because I still cry without warning. And I figure that when I stop doing that, then I will stop wearing the ribbon. My grief, my prerogative.
What else has been happening around here?
Well, last Thursday evening was the Academic and Sports Banquet. Awards for these two things are given out that night. Each family brings in a couple of covered dishes and the school provides the meats, drinks, plates and such. You have to be invited academically or be on one of the sports teams.
The counselor gives out awards for kids on the A and B Honor Rolls. If you have made the A Honor Roll all year (for the first time), then you get an academic letter (to put on a school jacket), a pin to go on that letter (each year you achieve this) and a certificate for the school year. She also awards a plaque with the student's name and the school year stating that they are the Top of the Class for their grade.
The Boy is not on any type of sports team, but we were invited to attend because he has really good grades. He has actually had really good grades for his whole school career. And, he has always been one of the top three or four kids in the class. When I moved him to this school to start the fourth grade, there was a girl in his class that was blind. She remains in his class and has been named the top student every year since we moved here.
Now, several of the kids think that it is kind of not fair since she doesn't do all of the same work that the rest of them have to do. They also don't like the fact that she has someone reading tests and assignments for her since her reader could know the answer and inflect a tone of voice when reading the correct answer. The Boy is one of these kids (even though he has no understanding of tone of voice! Go Autism!). I just try to remind him that he wouldn't want to be blind. I also make sure he knows that I can't change his mind over his opinion, but as long as he feels that way and he still does his very best, then he knows that the grades he receives are his very own. I don't think it makes him feel any better, but at least he still does his best!
When the counselor announced that she was giving out the Top of the Class awards, several in this class prepared to clap for the same child that had been receiving it every year. Man was everyone surprised when The Boy's name was called! I was excited for him. The Boy however, just went up and got the plaque without so much as a grin! He wouldn't even let me take his picture with it! I think he is excited too, but he was embarrassed to be the center of attention. The other kids were happy for him though!
I am trying to get excited enough to start packing up my office here at work/school to move it all to the newly built Elementary building that sits right across the street from the High School. Don't get me wrong. A new building that close to the High School will be nice. The problem comes in when I tell you that I will be moving from a room that is about 20 feet by 20 feet with two windows to a room that is literally 14 ft by 8 ft and has no windows in the walls or even in the door to see out into the hallway. I have seriously used painter's tape to mark out the dimensions on my current office floor so that I can somehow figure out where to place the items that I need to take. It is like a tetris puzzle! Once it gets in the room, you can't just change your mind about placement of items without moving everything out the door and starting over! Oh. And the 14ft by 8ft area actually only has 10ft by 5 1/2 ft of actual workable floor space! Yeah. Everyone needs a challenge!
We are scheduled to get out of school on Friday, May 14th at noon. At this moment, summer school is supposed to start on June 1st. Don't even get me started on that! I am kind of hoping that it is called off due to lack of funding. Does that mean that I won't have to show up anyway? Probably not since the superintendent is a (insert word of choice here).
So that is how things have been here. I am healing from the inside out. Although this whole thing is going to be leaving a scar.