Getting the Finger

I have decided to enter another picture over at I Heart Faces this week.  I was a bit disappointed that I didn't get my act together in time to enter anything last week.  I didn't think I would be able to show off this photo as an entry because there is not a face to be found.  But, after reading the rules for this week, there doesn't have to be a face showing at all!  Yay for me!

This picture was taken around Halloween time.  I love these cookies, not only for the taste, but also because sometimes it is fun to give someone a finger!

Writer's Workshop

If you are a reader who has been here a while, you may notice that today I am going to try something a little different.  I have decided to link up over at Mama Kat's.  She hosts the Writer's Workshop and gives you some different prompts to chose from for your writing. 

The prompt that I chose reads: Where does that fear come from? Write about something that frightens you that other people might find ridiculous. Write about it in a poem, a story, or whatever. 

I have a crazy fear of funerals.  Well, not really the actual funeral, just portions of it.  I know that most people don't like to attend funerals.  Although if you do, then I can only assume that you are a mortician or something along those lines.

Anyway, when you go to a funeral, you hope that whoever dealt with the body was able to make your dearly departed look as though they are just sleeping.  I am not sure why this is the case, but you never hear anyone say that they want to look horrid at their own funeral.  But, the thing is that if they make them look as if they are just taking a nap, that is when my mind starts to play tricks on me.  Because when the funeral director closes the lid I begin to panic and freak out.

How did I arrive at this fear?  Well, I didn't even know that I had the fear until I was at my uncle's funeral several years ago and I had the misfortune to witness the closing and sealing of the casket.

Now, when I go to a funeral, I keep my fingers crossed that the lid will be closed when I am not looking.  Crazy, huh?  I know the body is still inside, but unless I actually witness the lid closing I am fine.

Another fear that I have about funerals was discovered this past November.  We had been at a visitation for around six hours and was finally leaving for the night to get something to eat and then get some rest so we could return the following morning for the funeral.  I rode with my husband planning to leave my car at the funeral home and return to get it after eating.

Simple enough, huh?  Not really.  Because when I got back to get my car, I couldn't make myself get into it and leave.  I just had a major meltdown and started to cry.  After several minutes, I was able to verbalize just what it was that was causing the episode.

The irrational fear was that everyone had just left the funeral home.  How can people just pick up their stuff and leave their loved one in that place?  Alone?  They have been a mom, a dad, a sibling, a friend, a husband or a wife for many years.  And it is doubtful that anyone had ever just walked away from them without telling them that they were loved or even just a simple 'see ya later'.  But this had happened.  And I lost it.

Another fear of the funeral stuff occurs in the cemetery.  I have to walk several feet away from in front of the stone or directly behind the stone.  If I don't do it that way, then I feel as though I am walking on someone.  And that is just wrong.

All of these things give me nightmares for weeks when I attend a funeral.  Even just a visitation will usually set off the nightmares.  For that matter, I will probably have nightmares tonight just because I brought this to the forefront of my mind.  Talking about them makes me want to cry.

I know that these fears are totally irrational.  And most people look at me like I am totally crazy when I verbalize them.  But even though my mind knows it is a little on the nutty side, my heart has yet to be convinced.

Head on over to see what others are writing about this week!

      

Dear Someone

Today is the day that I like to join in with Short Mama to write Dear Someone Letters.   Let's get started!

Dear Short Mama,

I have no idea what is going on here, but I could not get your button to show up.  I have tried everything I know how to do, but no dice.  Could I really have forgotten how it is supposed to work in a week?!  I don't think so, but something is up.....

Sorry,
Ima Hick

Dear Everyone,

It has been a long week since I last posted.  And I am just nearly too tired and confused and brain jumbled to even come up with something to write that is even close to being readable.  That is the main reason that I haven't typed out anything for nearly a week.  So don't be surprised if you read all of this, sit back and question just what exactly I was talking about!

Sincerely,

Ima Hick

Dear Nurse at the Other School,

Remember back in January when we sent emails back and forth concerning Kindergarten Screening?  No?  Well, I do.  And if you don't, then I will gladly show you the emails that I happened to have saved.  Anyway, during that time, I told you that you would need to make sure you were at the screening since you had a job to do there.  I didn't realize that you didn't think that I was talking to you.  Silly me!  Where were you the day of the screening?  Unless the date was different than what was posted in the newspaper, you were not there.  After I had told you two months prior that you needed to be there!  And, tomorrow is the deadline for you to return all of those papers to me that I have to have for the two of us to hopefully keep our jobs.  Guess what?  I don't have from you what I need.  Am I totally shocked?  Not at all.  Will I apologize if the forms are delivered in the mail today or tomorrow?  Maybe.  We will have to see what kind of mood I am in.

So mad that I don't even know how to end this letter,

The One Who You are Supposed to Pay Attention To

Dear School District Voters,

Nice to know that someone besides those of us who work here are questioning the school board decisions and have decided to vote out an incumbent and vote in someone totally new.  Have we all made the wrong decision?  Time will tell, but can it really be worse than it was?

Thanks,

A School Employee

Dear Mother Nature,

The weather was really nice for a few days.  For that I thank you.  I have, however, had enough of the wind.  Did you forget that this is Missouri, not Wyoming?  Now, the rain is back and with it came cold again.  Pick a season!  Please.  And make it summer.....

Thanks,

Wishing for Summer

Dear Grandma,

Didn't think I could get those deviled eggs done for Sunday dinner, did ya? Ha!!  Fooled you!  I not only got them done, but had some left.  Of course, I delegated the eggs to be hard-boiled.  But you never specified that I couldn't do that!

Love,

Your Favorite Granddaughter

Dear State,

Please do not cut funding for my position at school.  No matter what anyone else might think, I am really a help to the school.  And, if you want to cut funding, then that will just be one more person standing in the unemployment lines.  I didn't realize that when the higher ups said they wanted to create jobs that what they actually meant was they only wanted to create them in the unemployment offices.

Please Save the Funding,

A School Nurse

Dear Mind,

I am tired.  And you working all night shoving dreams that make no sense at all or that scare the you know what out of me is just not helping.  I am really over this.

Thanks,

Needing Sleep

Dear New Doctor's Office,

You were so kind to me when I called.  You answered all of my questions and then some.  Thank you so much for being so kind and patient.  I really appreciate it.

Sincerely,

Hope it Will Continue

Dear Boy,

You crack me up!  And you are growing like a weed again.  I am hoping that I will be able to convince you to start wearing short sleeves and shorts once Mother Nature allows warmer temperatures to show up around here.  I know how hard it is to totally change your way of dressing.  And I hate having to hide all of the wrong weather type clothing from you.  But, I have done it before and will do it again!

Love,

Your Mom

Dear Swap Partner,

I have everything that I can think of that reminds me of Spring all stuffed neatly packed into a box that I am going to be wrapping up tonight.  I will bring it with me to work in the morning so that I can stop at the post office on my way home tomorrow.  And then it will be on it's merry way to your house!  Hope you like it!

Keeping my fingers crossed,

Your Swap Partner

That is about all I can squeeze out of this tired, jumbled brain of mine at the moment.  Hopefully next week will be better.  Now, don't just sit there!  Go check out the other letters!

Because of This, He Is

I am ashamed to admit that I used to look at the kids who were throwing themselves down in the middle of Wal-Mart's aisles and wonder just why the mom was letting the child act that way.  I would always tell myself that my child would never!  And if he did, then that would only happen once!

Then God performed a miracle and I had a child who he blessed with Autism.

What?!  A miracle and a blessing?!  Are you crazy?!

Probably.  But yes, a miracle and a blessing.  I have not always looked at it that way.  And to be honest, there are days that I still don't!  Especially when I am the mom of that kid in Wal-Mart.  Or when I am seen trying to calm a tearful scared child who stands inches above me when we are in the pediatrician's office.  Or when The Boy refuses to let anyone but Shannon touch him at the orthodontist office.

I will not lie when I say that I sometimes wish that my son had a limp or a cast or whatever that could be seen by the world instead of this invisible disability.  At least then there would be no scathing looks from others when the above happens.  I can handle those looks (or I at least like to tell myself that I can), but I get royally ticked when they are directed at The Boy.

If I try to explain that The Boy is on the spectrum, the looks turn to a couple of different things.  Since he has grown so much, most of the time the look continues as anger because now I am just trying to cover for an overgrown brat or a really spoiled teen.  Or, it could turn to confusion and then pity.  Very rarely does it ever go from confusion to understanding.

A miracle and a blessing is what I have. 

When my Grandmother says in awe, "he hugged me", I am reminded of this.  When my teenager tells me that he loves me and doesn't mind if his classmates hear, I am reminded of this.  When I realize that he is smarter than I will ever be, I know that he is a blessing and a miracle.  And without the blessing, The Boy would not be The Boy.  Sure, he would still be my son, but he would not be who he is.

Today is Autism Awareness Day and the month of April is Autism Awareness Month.  Please, open your hearts and your minds when you see those Wal-Mart meltdowns. Maybe, just maybe, that family you are passing judgment on is working through Autism.

Dear Someone

As you know, or maybe you don't, I link up with Short Mama to write Dear Someone Letters.  These help me say the things that I would love to be able to tell people, but usually don't.  Enjoy!

Dear Mailman,

Please do not talk behind my back.  Just because I have called and asked that my mail be dropped off at my parent's house does not mean that my husband and I are having problems.  It simply means that with all of the icy weather we were having and now the major possibilities of flooding, I just really need to have access to those bills that continue to be sent to me despite the weather.

Thanks,

Still Happily Married

Dear Major Television Networks,

Do you realize how hard it is to watch your shows when you schedule all of the good ones at the same time?  You know, your ratings for each would rise if you put the good ones opposite the ones that are never watched. Maybe you should try that next season and see if it helps any.

Sincerely,

Tired of Having to Choose

Dear Department of Education,

No matter what you do, not every child will be proficient at the subjects that you throw out there.  Have you ever even visited a school?  Do you realize that there are children here that have such major disabilities that they can't even tell you their own names?  And you want them to be proficient at math?!  C'mon.  Really?  Who is coming up with all of your brilliant ideas?  I agree that it would be nice to have a country full of really smart kids who turn into really smart adults, but can we be realistic?

Sincerely,

Just Shaking My Head

P.S.  And having end of course exams that count for 20% of the grade at the beginning of April?  There are still six weeks until the end of school!  Shouldn't these be called 'Three Quarters of the Course' exams?

Dear Interviewers,

Can I have the job I interviewed for?  Or at least some other job that I may be even better at?  How about any job that you may have available?  For the same pay as you were advertising of course.  Really.  Just give me two weeks and I would be all yours.  Matter of fact, if I was to tell the Superintendent today, then more than likely he would tell me not to come tomorrow.  Then I could be all yours on Tuesday since Monday is a state holiday.  It would really do my wallet heart good to hear that you want me to work for you.

Sincerely,

Waiting on Your Call

Dear Family,

Is this a joke?  You want me to bring the deviled eggs for Easter Dinner, all the while knowing that I can't hard boil an egg to save my life.  You are doing it just so you can laugh at me, aren't you?

Love,

I Will Show You 

Dear Second Grade Teacher,

Thank you, thank you, thank you!  I truly appreciate you boiling the eggs for me.  I am being 100% honest when I tell you that I have tried everything known to man and the middles are still not done.  And I even proved it to my mother who stood over me and watched me start with cool water, and then I even boiled the yolk right out of the thing for 30 minutes before letting the water cool down a little and then running cool water over it again to let it sit for another hour.  And the darn thing wasn't fit to eat.  Sad, ain't it?

Thanks again,

I Can Cook Anything But a Hard Boiled Egg

Dear Mother Nature,

Thank you so much allowing us the privilege of knowing that Mr. Sunshine is still alive and well.  I was beginning to wonder if you were waiting on a ransom or something.  I know that I have not received a ransom letter, but then maybe it was lost in the mail?  Either way, I am glad to see that you have released him and allowed him to return to showing himself.

Very Grateful,

Vitamin D Deficient

Dear Mrs. 4444,

You know how I love riding your coattails linking up to you for your Friday Fragments every week.  But this week, I will not be at school/work because of our abbreviated version of spring break.  Not that you are worried about less link up, I am sure, but I wanted to let you know just on the off chance that I am missed!  I will return to your regularly scheduled Fridays as soon as possible!

Hope to be back next week,

Ima Hick

Dear Anyone Who Has Read Down This Far,

Tomorrow morning I have a special post all scheduled to arrive here around 8am central time.  It isn't linked up with anyone or anything like that, but I would love to have you come visit and read it tomorrow.  And, if it isn't too much trouble, maybe send some others over this way to read it also.  I would love to have the extra visitors!

Thanks so much,

Ima Hick

Did you find anything that you wish you could have written?  If not here, then maybe over at Short Mama's place.  Head on over and see what others have to say.  Tell her I said "hey" and that I sent ya!

The Interview

Last Thursday I went on an interview.  I was a bit nervous since I have not been to one of these in quite a while.  Plus the fact that interviews always make me question just how qualified I am anyway.  They always seem to ask the strangest questions and you never are sure what answer they are looking for.

I have been looking for a different job for a while.  It is not that I don't like the job I have, because I do, it is just that I think that a change may be for the best.  Especially since I come to work everyday wondering if it will be my last.  After all, this position is grant funded and with all of the cuts that the state government is making, I feel that if my grant is cut even by $100, I will be out of a job.  Couple that with the fact that I have been told there is no longer a need for me since "your last diabetic is graduating in May" and I figured it was time to start actively looking.

Around the tenth of this month, I received a card in the mail looking for resumes for a job working for the state.  Now, I was a bit worried about applying for that since it is a state position, and like I said before, a lot of states are making cuts. In the end, I decided to apply anyway and see what happened.

I sent in my resume by email, which I have noticed a lot of employers now accepting them this way.  You never know if it gets to where it is going or if it is lost somewhere in cyberspace though.  But I guess it is the same as sending it by snail mail since you are never certain it got where you addressed it.

About a week after I sent it, I was contacted and told that I had been "chosen" for an interview.  First hurdle cleared!  She told me that I needed to get online and fill out an application and then she would mail an application to me also that would need to be filled out.  Why can't they just use the one I fill out online?  Because everything for the state has to be done a dozen different times!

I made it to the interview with just about two minutes to spare before my scheduled appointment time.  Which was actually pretty good since I had forgotten the shoes I needed and had to go back home to get them and then drive through water that was beginning to flood over the road.  Things seemed to be looking good!

When I was called back for the interview itself, there were three women sitting at two tables pushed into an "L" shape.  I am seated at a table with one of the women and the other two are at the other table.

The first lady tells me that the way a state job interview works is that they each have a packet of papers in which there are several questions written on them.  They will go around the group and each ask a question.  As I speak, their job is to "write everything you say".

What?!  Everything I say?  Holy cow.  Now you have just made me even more nervous!  But, I take a deep breath, tell her that is fine and she begins.

Her first question is "Do you have a reliable source of transportation?"  I nearly get up and leave at that.  My answer is 'yes', but what goes through my mind is the conversations that I have had with The Boy.  We have been talking to him about looking for a job and he keeps telling me that he has to "have a reliable source of transportation".  I tell him that as his mom, I am his reliable source of transportation.  He tells me that "moms don't count"!  So, I really have to think before answering this question!

This interview goes on for about 30 minutes with a pass the buck sort of question and answer session.  Each of them asking a question and me answering while they scribble down answers.

At one point, I look at the lady sitting across from me and see that the question is above where she is writing.  Just below that, there are lots of words that seem to be things that need to be either said or implied in my answer and she circles each of those things.  Then there is a scale from one to five that I can only assume means to evaluate how I answered the question with a five being very good.  Now mind you, I couldn't read everything that was typed, let alone what she wrote, but that was what I could make out.

As I watched her write what I had said, I noticed that she was circling mostly fours and fives.  That made me feel a lot better about how the interview was going since a lot of the questions that were being asked I felt like could only be answered if you had held the position before.

Once I left, however, I got to thinking about the whole set up.  Maybe that lady who was seated at the same table as me was a ringer.  Maybe her whole job was to circle those fours and fives to make the person being interviewed feel better about how it was going.  Maybe her scores didn't count at all!  Maybe those other two women were back there circling ones and wishing there were zeros!

The more I think about the whole process, the worse I feel about it all.  Maybe I shouldn't have told them a couple of the things I did in the hopes of clarifying my application.  Or maybe I should have done some more research on the types of questions that were going to be asked.  Or maybe I should have just told them that according to The Boy I am not a reliable source of transportation and gotten up and left right then!

Either way, now all I can do is wait.  I don't know how long it will be before they make a decision one way or the other since I forgot to ask and they didn't offer that up.  Is that because they didn't feel I needed to know since they had already made a decision earlier in the day?  Is that why they didn't tell me when I could expect to hear?

Jeeeez.  Can I just win the Mega Lottery and not have to worry about any more interviews?  Please?

Friday Fragments

Welcome to Friday Fragments, once again hosted by Mrs. 4444.  Go see what she has to say.  And when you are done with that, visit everyone else that has linked up.  And, when you are done with that, link up yourself!

If you were here yesterday, you know that I was scheduled to have an interview. And, if you were here yesterday, you also know that I forgot the shoes I was going to wear.  Well, today, you will be happy to know that I was able to make it home through the water that was across the road and get the shoes that I needed.  I then made it to my scheduled interview with about a minute and a half to spare.  And wouldn't you know it, I had to wait on them!  Guess I will continue to wait on them to see if they want me to work for them.

Tonight is the night of the last of the fish frys in the area.  Next Friday is Good Friday and the don't have one then.  We have been to three different ones this year.  Plan on going tonight, but not sure which one.  And, my grandparents have finally been convinced to come out with us!  I am so happy about that!

I have got to get all of this paperwork off of my desk!  It is starting to get toward the end of the year and I really need to get it all filed and counted and whatever else needs to be done with it!  Anyone not busy and wanna come help?!

Crazy Man just called a little bit ago.  Wants to take Lucille to Boyfriend's house to change her oil.  Then tomorrow, we are hoping to get out for our first ride of the season.  That is if Mother Nature reads the letter that it seems many are writing to her and the sun comes out.

Wednesday night we were watching the show Modern Family on ABC.  I love that show!  I find it absolutely hilarious and have even gotten Crazy Man watching it too.  If your sense of humor is anything like mine, God Bless the ones you live with then you will be wiping away the tears from laughter.  There aren't a bunch of shows that I find amusing on tv, but this is definitely one of them.

I think this weekend I will probably be trying to gather things up to mail to my swap partner.  Lots of ideas, but none acted on yet.  Which just tells my partner that I am not the 'crafty' type of person she may be hoping for!  Because you those 'crafty' folks started to work on their ideas when the mention of a swap was brought up I am sure!  Hopefully she will like what I pack anyway.

We only have 32 days of school/work left this year!  Well, that is not counting the 20 days of summer school.  If they have summer school this year anyway.  With all of the cuts that the state is making, nobody is really positive at this point that the funding will be available come summer school time.  Wouldn't bother me if we didn't have it since I am not paid anyway.  Of course if I get this other job that I just interviewed for then I won't have to worry about it anyway.

Okay....gotta run.  Those organizational fairies still haven't shown up.  And I know that I filled that form out in triplicate requesting their services.  If I could just find my copy on this desk.......

Dear Someone Letters

I have finally made it to Thursday.  And let me just tell you that I am really happy for that little fact.  For one, I am just glad to have made it that far with the chaos that is happening here.  Another reason is because it is time for the Dear Someone letters hosted by Short Mama.  Click on over there because there are more letters where these came from!

Dear Mother Nature,

Look.  I know that I asked for no more snow, as I am certain many others did.  However, I think that what I really meant was no more lovely wet stuff falling from the sky.  I know, I know....you have to have the rain to make spring flowers.  I understand that, truly I do.  But you have to look at it from my perspective too.  When you pour that much rain out of the sky, I can't get home because you have filled everything so full that it is now flooding.  And that ain't cool.  Because I like to be at home in my own bed to sleep.  So, could you pretty please just slow down on the wet stuff?  Just a little.  I'm not asking for it to completely cease. Just slow it down so there isn't the flooding.  After all, if it floods, the flowers can't grow underwater.

Thanks,

I'm Not a Duck

Dear Sinatra and Ziggy,

I know that we haven't been at home much this past week.  But it isn't because we don't want to be.  Mother Nature is working against us.  Maybe if you would contact her, then there would be three of us asking nicely.  Look at it this way though....at least you have as much food as you want when we have to pack and leave in a hurry.

Love and miss your furry and purry-ness,

Mom and The Boy

Dear Crazy Man,

I just don't understand.  If I had days that I could take off, I would much rather wait until I could spend it with you and The Boy or when I had something that absolutely had to be done that I couldn't get done any other time.  Not to go to a funeral of someone that I hadn't become acquainted with until a short time ago.  I know that you felt "obligated" but I just don't understand.  And I am trying, really I am.

Love,

Your Wife

Dear Organizational Fairies,

Why have you not come to clean off my desk yet?  I have wished for you to come and organize it all and let me know the color of the desktop and yet you have not shown up.

Please come....quickly,

Leaving the Door Unlocked

Dear Boy,

I love you son.

Love,

Mom

Dear Interviewer,

Hopefully when I talk to you later this afternoon I won't make a complete and total fool of myself.  After all, I am wanting this position that I applied for.  Or at least I think I do.  I really think that I could do the job with the right training.  And I am hoping that you will think the same thing by the time we are finished talking.  I was told that I would be the last interview of the day.  Maybe that will be good for me and I will be the only one that you remember.

Sincerely,

C'mon....Give Me A Chance

Dear Superintendent,

Hopefully the above mentioned interview goes well and I can give you my notice soon.  It would do my heart good to be able to dump all these forms in your lap and tell you that they are due April 15th.  Yep, it would make me smile!

Sincerely,

Keeping My Fingers Crossed

Dear Me,

Get it together!  You will be fine this afternoon.  Even if you did forget your shoes for the interview.  You will have time to go get them and all will work out wonderfully.

Signed,

Just Believe

Dear Readers,

Don't forget to head on over to Short Mama's to read more Dear Someone letters.  Better yet, join in!  It may just save your life sanity!

Thanks,

Ima Hick

I Heart Faces Photo Challenge

Time for another photo challenge at I Heart Faces.  This week's challenge is "Focusing on Angles".  I thought this was a nifty picture for that.

This wasn't taken with my newest camera.  Just a Kodak point and shoot.  That is probably why it looks a little blurry.  Or at least it does to me.  

Either way, I love the colors.  And The Boy can smile!  Not often that you see that!  Which is another reason I love this shot! 

Monday Morning Musings

This morning, as we were getting ready to leave, I got a phone call.  Now, you know, if the phone rings in the mornings, it usually isn't the best of news.  And this was the case today.  

My mom was calling to say that they noticed that the water was on the rise and that if it has rained as much north of us as it has rained here in the past couple of days, then dad felt I may have some problems getting home this afternoon.  Which means that I should pack some clothes and grab what we need in case the roads are flooded and we can't get home after work/school.

So, ten minutes before we were scheduled to walk out the door, I am throwing thing in bags.  When we go into town over the weekend, I have to pack clothes for both me and The Boy.  Luckily these things were still in the suitcase.  Of course, they are all dirty, but at least there is something.  We grabbed the dog and his crate and food to drop off at my parents' house on the way.

I didn't get work clothes, just what was in the bag.  There was no time.  As it was, I walked in the door at work at exactly 8 instead of 7:35. So, if the roads are flooded and we can't get home this afternoon, looks like we will probably be at my parents' house.  And, I guess I will wash what I have and if they don't like what I am wearing, I will come home.

 

Other than that little scene this morning, the day has been wonderful!  I am hoping to spend some time today perusing my swap partner's site.  This weekend, I got myself all partnered up by Short Mama who is hosting a Spring Swap.  I have some ideas as to what I will be packaging up and sending, but I haven't made the final decisions yet.

 

I picked up The Boy's report card on Thursday evening at Parent/Teacher Conferences.  He did really well.  All "A" or "A-" with the exception of one "B+". He is sooooo much smarter than I will ever be!  We visited with several of his teachers.  One of them told me that he was going to let The Boy teach for the rest of the year!  Another told me that he was at the top in his class.  We asked his math teacher if she thought he would have any problems if he took both Algebra II and Geometry next year, and she said that she felt he would do just fine.  That is something that I worried about, but if she feels he will do well, then I will fight with him to get his allowed to do this.

 

The only thing that I had an issue with was that the DNA Donor had showed up before I was able to get there.  Normally, that is no big deal, after all, at least he showed up.  However, when he shows up to something like this, he always makes his opinions known....loudly.  

This time, it seems that he told the counselor that The Boy didn't want to go into the classes that we had been talking about for next year.  He said that those classes were of no benefit to him, but that he wanted everyone to get him to take as many college courses as he could so he could earn dual credit.  The counselor asked The Boy what he wanted, not what Mom wanted and not what DNA Donor wanted.  The Boy told her that he wanted to take two maths and two sciences next year in case he decided to take the pre-engineering course at the Career Center his junior year.

He did have questions (which we had already discussed together but think that he wanted to make sure that I was telling him the truth) about how a pre-engineering course could help him when he wanted to do something with computers.  When those were answered, he repeated again which courses he wanted to take "if possible" next year.  Now all we have to do is wait and see how the schedule pans out.

 

Everyone thinks that handling a young child's needs runs you ragged.  And they do.  But personally, I think that getting that teenager on the right course for what he feels he wants to do with his life is even more stressful.

Dear Someone

Short Mama is hosting her weekly Dear Someone letters.  I love these things!  If you want to join in or just see what others have to say, head on over to her place.

And now, without further ado..... 

Dear Doctor #1:  I sure do wish you would have listened to me.  If you had, then you wouldn't have forced me to waste both my time and my money on tests that I had already told you the results for.  Just because I am not a doctor like you has no bearing on whether I know what my body is doing.  Maybe you should learn to listen to your patients.  I don't want to know about some disease process that I do not have.  I want you to talk to me like you have heard what I have said and about MY disease process.

Sincerely,
Poorer for Visiting You 



Dear Doctor #2:  Of course you agree 100% with Doctor #1's course of action.  Was there ever really any doubt?  I have yet to hear a doctor who sends a patient to another one ever disagree with the one he sent his patient to.  Trust me when I say that tomorrow you and I will be having a conversation and I plan on letting you know exactly how I feel about it all.  Depressed my a**.  I am pi**ed off!

Sincerely,
Be Prepared 



Dear Doctor #3:  I am loving your job!  More specifically, I am loving your paycheck.  How many folks can say that they live in a fabulous home and drive fabulous cars by only being in the office for a half day a week?  And, did you know while you are not in your office, you have some not so brilliant people taking care of things there?  Yeah.  Like the someones who lost the question that I really need an answer to on Monday.  And then again on Wednesday.  I guess I will have to say that third times a charm and try again soon to get an answer.

Sincerely,
Lucky I'm not Dying 



Dear Medical Schools Across the Country and Around the World:  I know that in every graduating class that someone has to finish last.  However, do you have to funnel the bottom of each class to my area?  Can't you skim the top of a few classes so we have some options here?


Thanks, 
My Health 



Dear Body of Mine:  I am really quite sick of you.  Honestly.  You are turning against me no matter what I do.  Seemingly falling apart from the inside out.  You are going to have to stop rebelling and start playing by the rules.  Otherwise, we will have to continue having to deal with Doctors 1,2, and 3.  And heaven knows that I am over that.

Sincerely,
Straighten Up 



Dear Subconscious:  I know that you are in charge of dreams when I am fortunate enough to sleep deep enough to have them.  I don't know what kind of games you are playing.  I feel like you are trying to insure that I am crazy.  These dreams nightmares are starting to get old real quick.  Maybe you and Body of Mine need to get together and work things out amongst yourselves.  Otherwise, I am going to have to figure out how to get rid of you both.

Sincerely,
Really Need Some Decent Sleep 



Dear Boy:  I am so glad you finally let me cut your hair.  After taking off nearly three inches, you look older and ready for summer.

Love,
Mom of a Boy....Not a Girl 



Dear Crazy Man:  You get my birthday gift out of the box and I will let you take yours out of the package!  Deal??

Love,
Your Favorite Wife

Remembering When

When I was around three or four, we moved to the house that my parents and Little Little Brother still live in, and which happens to be about three miles from where I live now.  I remember the day we moved in.  The house sat (still sits) on top of a big hill just off of the gravel road and right before a curve.  Across the road and back a ways on the property was another house that employed big mean dogs to keep you off of their property.  And around the bend from there was my grandparents' house, where my dad had grown up.  When the leaves were off of the trees, we could see each others house.

Grandma and Grandpa lived on a huge 425 acre farm with cattle and crops.  The house they lived in was built by my grandpa.  My grandma tells me that she and my dad laid the real wood flooring while my grandpa was working as a mechanic in town.  The big garage out back of the house has my tiny little footprints pressed into the concrete from the day it was poured.  There was a 50 gallon barrel that sat at the corner of this garage and gathered rain water.  We used to sit in the swing that hung between two giant trees and shuck corn and break beans.  They sold this place over 20 years ago.

I remember "running away" once.  I packed a little suitcase, put my shoes and jacket on and out the door I went.  With shoelaces flopping (because I was too young to know how to tie them yet) I went around the bend to Grandma's house because that was the only place I knew how to get too! As my mom stood at the door watching me, she called my Grandma to let her know that I was on my way.  I don't remember what happened after that, but evidently I came back home!

We were on a "party line".  I don't know how many people know what that is, so maybe I should explain.  I remember there being four different houses on the same phone line.  Each house had a different ring.  When a call would come in, I imagine that there were people in all of those houses who stopped and listened to see if it was their ring. And, when you wanted to use the phone to make a call, you carefully picked up the receiver to hear if there was a dial tone or someone talking.  To this day, I rarely answer the phone on the first ring and I always listen for a dial tone before making a call!

I remember there being a giant mud puddle that would appear in the curve when it rained, and my Big Little Brother and I would always be running through it with our bare feet or with our bikes.  Not one time do I remember my parents complaining that we were a mess.

I remember that at one point there were only four kids on the entire 5 mile road.  There happened to be another boy and girl who lived a couple of hills over from us.  That girl and I became best friends and still are.  Our parents used to put us together on Halloween every year.  We would start  Trick-or-Treating at the beginning of that road just as the sun set.  Everyone on the road knew who we were of course.  They made, not bought, the right amount of treats for us all.  No skimping!  House after house had popcorn balls and oranges and still warm from the oven cookies.  When we knocked on any door, we were immediately invited in, and while the adults visited, the kids tried to eat as many of the goodies as we could before stuffing the remainder into our bags as we headed out the door to the next house.  When we would get to the next house, there would have been a phone call from the previous house letting them know that we were on our way.  There was never any reason to check the treats before eating them, because the treat makers ate right along with us.

I remember getting up on Saturday mornings and putting on your "town" clothes.  We went to town once a week.  I don't remember everything we did while we were there, but it had to be several things since we only went once a week.  I do remember going to visit a Great Aunt and Uncle.  He always had a pocket on his shirt and I would always find a silver dollar in that pocket!  There were always Circus Peanut candies on the coffee table too.  We would do grocery shopping while we were in town.  I didn't know until after my grandparents sold the farm that you could buy meat in the store!

It is amazing to me how things have changed in just a few years.  And I am certain that as I get older, I will continue to wish that things were the way they used to be.

I think that is part of the reason that I live where I live and how I live....because I loved that place.  And I want my son to experience at least a little of the same things.  I love the memories that I have.  And I want The Boy to be able to remember with love when he could look out and not see/hear his neighbors.  Or when he was able to have chickens run wild in his yard.  Twenty years from now, I want him to look back and wish that he could return to a simpler time filled with things that he wants to re-create for his own children.  I know I do.

Mad and Glad

Is it really too much to ask for a simple "thank you"?  I have always thought that those two little words could make a person's day or break their heart.  I try really hard to make sure that I speak those words when someone does something for me.  No matter how big or little.

Did you load the dishwasher?  Thank you.

Did you empty the basket of laundry that I just don't have the energy to fold?  Thank you bunches!

Did you bring me a warm blanket while I was so sick in the hospital?  Thank you.

Are you the one who finally got an iv started in me when I was sick?  Thank you, thank you, thank you.

Are you going to let me stay at your home while we visit your area?  Thanks.

See.  Nobody has to do what they do.  It is a choice.  And if we don't give them the thanks for doing it, then why would they want to make the choice to help you out again the next time?

Think about it.  Don't you appreciate when you do something that is your choice and you get a thank you?  Doesn't that make you feel like they appreciated your help?  And, most of the time, you will consider doing something for that person again, right?

Last October, my mom bought some material to make a baby blanket.  She had just recently found out that a girl in her office was pregnant and the material was on sale.  She found what she wanted and paid for it.

I asked her if she wanted me to take it home to make the blanket or if she was planning on doing it.  She told me that it would be a while before the shower, so she thought she would be able to handle it.  Great.

Skip ahead to last Thursday.  My mom calls me to tell me that the baby shower was going to be Tuesday (today) and says she never got the blanket done.  She asked if I would make it for her.  I told her that I would.

Yesterday after school, I put the material on the tables here at school/work and spent an hour getting the blanket done.  I dropped it off on my way home. My parents were not home from work yet, so I left it in the bag hanging on one of the kitchen chairs.

I have not heard from her yet.  How hard is it to call and say "hey thanks, it turned out nice" or "that thing is pretty ugly, but thanks anyway for taking the time to do that" or even "thanks, I found it here"? 

Evidently I am expecting too much.  After all, family doesn't require thanks, right?  Maybe not, but it is still nice to hear.  Aren't they the ones who taught me as a child to always say thank you?

I know that I have taught my son to have manners.  Please and thank you are major words in his vocabulary.  Matter of fact, I have been told that he is very polite.  How would I have been able to teach him this if I hadn't been taught?

And, I guess some would argue that a parent doesn't have to thank their child for doing whatever.  But, I don't agree with that either.  You can't teach your child how important those words are if you never use them.

There are plenty of people out there in the world who feel that kids don't have the respect and manners that they used to have.  How can they when they aren't being taught?  Or at least the teachings aren't being followed by the parents?

I am probably making too big a deal out of all of this.  I have been told recently that I blow tiny little things out of proportion.  And, according to them, this is one of those times.  But, dog-gone it.....I am crabby lately and this just irritates me!

One thing that isn't irritating me right now is that I have decided to join in on some swapping fun.  Around Christmas time last year, I joined in on a Secret Santa in the bloggy world.  That was a bunch of fun.  Now, I have found that Short Mama is having a spring time swap.

Maybe that will make me happy again!  Being able to gather things that I enjoy for spring and send them to someone else?  At least that is how I understand that is the way we do this....  If so, then I have three weeks to gather my items and send them along to whoever Short Mama hooks me up with.

I read about this last week, but couldn't decide if I wanted to join in or not.  After thinking all about it and coming up with a couple of ideas, I decided to spring forward with it!  Plus, the bonus is that I will be getting a package also! And I love mail!

If you want to join in, and you know you do, then just spring into action and link up.  But hurry...you only have until tomorrow! 

I ♥ Faces

This week on I ♥ Faces, the theme is Bundled Up.  When I read about this, I immediately thought of the following picture:

This probably isn't the best picture in the world, but it is one that I love.  The Boy is bundled up enough that his breath is starting to fog up his glasses! We were trying to figure out how to get the big tree that the ice had brought down across our lane out of the way.

This is only the second time that I have entered a picture.  Neither of the ones that I have entered have been altered in any way. Why not?  Because I either like them the way they are, or I haven't figured out PhotoShop Elements yet!

Birthdays!

This is a momentous post for a couple of reasons.  

First off, today is my Crazy Man's birthday.  He is old.  That is all I am going to say about his age!  

He is the love of my life.  I have had to go through a lot of things to get to him.  And I wouldn't change it since I know the outcome.  I think that I knew the minute I met him that I loved him.  But it took several years together and apart for me to be able to tell him.

I wouldn't change anything about him, even if I was given a magic wand and the powers to do so.  I wish that I could give him the winning PowerBall ticket so that he could have all the things that he would like to have.  And so that I could laugh at him when he buys the most ridiculous things!  But it would make him happy, so that would make me happy.

Happy birthday Crazy Man!  I hope that you have many more.  Especially since I know you will always be soooo much older than me, no matter what the numbers actually show!

Secondly, this happens to be my 100th post.  Cool, huh?!  Even better that it falls on Crazy Man's birthday since that is his age!  Guess that means it is happy birthday to this blog also.

Come on over, there is birthday cake for all!

Friday Fragments....finally

It is Friday Fragment time again.  Hosted by Mrs. 4444.  Click on over there to see how everyone else is doing.

As for me, I am happy about Friday.  I am also happy about the fact that I have a place to put down the fragments of this week.  I have been so busy that I am not sure that I have even had a full sentence thought this week!

I live 30 minutes from "town".  Because of this and the price of gasoline, I try to only go into town twice a week.  Once because The Boy has an appointment and the second to meet Crazy Man on Friday evenings when we usually stay there for the weekend. As of today when I go, this will be day four this week.  Next week, I have to go three days.  I just want a day at home!

So why did I spend nearly every afternoon in town?  Well, on Monday, we went to the Autism Center for a meeting.  On Tuesday, The Boy had his regularly scheduled appointment. Wednesday, we actually were able to go home after work/school.  Thursday I had an appointment at the hospital.  And now today, it is back to Friday and we are planning on staying in town again this weekend.

The appointment I had was for an ultrasound of my thyroid.  Again.  I really believe that the only thing it is going to show changed from last year around this time is that it has gotten smaller.  So why did I do it?  Because if I didn't do it, basically the doc told me that he would do nothing for me.  And I guess so that I can prove that I know what is going on with my body.  Silly me for thinking that I understand my own body.

Last week, the endocrinologist decided that he wanted to draw labwork again.  Lovely.  They ended up sticking me twice and bruising me pretty badly.  They couldn't get it the first time because the only vein they can usually hit wasn't healed up from the last time.  And, the labs show that since lowering my meds, my levels are becoming non-therapeutic again. DUH!  He also discovered that my vitamin D level was half of what the low range is.  So, he added a supplement to see what would happen.  And after three months, they will bruise the crap out of me draw labs again.

In better news....  We can see a bracket!  Yay!  A bracket, a bracket, a bracket!  No.  Not the March Madness bracket.  One of those brackets on a tooth.  You know.  For braces?  Yeah.  THOSE brackets.

Now most people don't get all hyper and turning cartwheels in the streets for that, right?  Well, I am not most people.  See, when The Boy had braces put on over two years ago, there was one tooth that was growing in the middle of the roof of his mouth.  An oral surgeon had to go in, under anesthesia and much drama, to attach a bracket to this rogue tooth and have a chain looped out of it so that it could be reeled in over time.

And that time is now!  Three weeks ago, you couldn't see the bracket.  Today, it is plainly visible.  All that has to be done now, is to get it turned the way it is supposed to sit and get it all comfy in the hole that is available.  Once it gets comfy and happy in it's new home, all the braces can be taken off and we can go happily along our merry way!

Who knew a bracket could be so exciting, huh?!  I know you are smiling and cheering too.  Don't deny it!

Pennies for Patients

Yeah, yeah, I am still alive.  Although it has been a crazy week to say the least.  And, it doesn't look like it is going to be getting any slower any time soon.  There has been so much happening this week, that I have not had the time to actually sit down and type anything until just this minute.  I don't even know where to start!  Maybe I will just post random things on Friday and go ahead with what I had planned for Monday now.  Yeah...that would probably be for the best.

Remember when I was looking for ideas for our Pennies for Patients campaign?  Well, we came up with some things to do to try to raise money.  One of those was a hat day.  The kids paid a dollar to get to wear a hat all day at school.  We sold chances for all sorts of things to be given away.  And then we sold water balloons for a dollar to throw at one of our teachers.

Through all of the three weeks that this took place, the kids could bring in any type of money to be added to their classroom total weight.  When we did this last year, I decided that it would be easier to weigh the money (since most of it comes in as change) than to find the time to count it all each week.  The class with the most weight would win a pizza party. 

Once we finished the three weeks of our campaign, I had planned to take the change to the bank that I use to have it counted.  The problem with that is that the bank told me that that they did not take bulk change without it being rolled. How silly is that?  So, instead of having them count it, I had to count and roll it all myself.  Well, not really alone since my father in law and my Crazy Man helped.

After it was all rolled (which took nearly a week!) the grand total was $567.25! This was less than what we brought in last year, but not bad when you consider what is going on with the economy.  And, since we only have 157 kids that participated, that works out to be an average of $3.61 each.  Not too bad!

We threw water balloons on February 19th.  Outside.  It was a little nippy, but it was actually the warmest day that we had been privy to for several weeks.  I brought my camera and gave it to a friend/co-worker who took all the pictures since I was busy coordinating the goings-on.

I filled all of the water balloons at home the night before.  There were only about 200 of them total!

 The kids had a really good time.  And, truth be told, so did the adults!  We are already trying to come up with something to top the water balloons for next year.

I am really proud of the kids.  They did a really good job raising the money that they raised.  I am also equally impressed by our music teacher for volunteering to have cold water balloons thrown at him on a cold and windy February!